Okie, ignore my post yesterday. heh. =)
I am afraid. June 21, 2008
It’s the third time in my life I am feeling this way.
I feel that I am losing it.
I have seen so many long relationships among my friends, and I really wonder why I couldn’t keep one.
So I ask myself questions. Maybe I’m not interesting enough to keep one’s attention? Maybe I’m just so easily replaceable? Maybe I’m not good enough to deserve one?
I have seen how fast a person’s heart could actually change in a split second. Not to mention, twice. While you’re holding on to the sweet promises and the days you’ve spent together, the other person would have changed. Just like a metal. It gets heat up really easily, but it cools down almost instantaneously as well.
This scares me. It really does.
Maybe I’m just not up to it.. because I do not have the courage to feel the pain yet again.
