I know I have been on hiatus for a super long time again. Lol. Well, when something major happens in Gladys’ life, she doesn’t really blog that much if you have already noticed. I’m not really sure how long am I going to continue posting new posts this time round, but I’ll definitely write if I’ve inspirations that suddenly springs upon me. =)
Trust. I used to think that, it’s really easy to trust in a relationship, so I didn’t really understand why couples quarrel. However, being in a relationship myself now, it really takes a great deal to trust your love one. Oh! But I still stand firm to the point of “argument-free relationship”. Why make your life bad when you know at the end of the day, while you’re hurting him/her, you’ll get double the pain? I don’t understand the logic at all. Hmm.. Maybe someday I’ll quarrel(playfully) with my husband about “I don’t wanna change diapers for baby..” or “My hands are turning jelly, so I can’t cook today..”. LOL. But I’ll still do it anyway~ Haha.
Okay, back to topic.
As some of you may have already know(’cause I’ve been saying that I missed him..lol), my love one was already far apart from me(Japan and Singapore), but now he’s flew to America for studies, and we’re like.. 11 hours apart now. It is so hard for us to talk, as when I’m awake, he’s asleep and vice versa. However, we still manage to talk for close to an hour each time on MSN. Honestly speaking, I was rather upset and disappointed by the fact that he can’t talk to me much, but I knew it can’t be help. So I’m rather contented the way things are now. Because.. hey, he bothers to talk to me even when he’s busy/tired! That really means a lot to me.. At the beginning, I kept thinking “where is he now?”, “is he having lots of fun till he’s forgotten about my presence?”, “is he falling for another person?”, etc etc. Then gradually, I realised, and I’ve learnt that, to trust, it has to be from the heart.
It doesn’t mean that he/she doesn’t love/think of you when both of you are far apart. In fact, he/she who’s sleeping next right to you now, may be thinking of another man/woman! It’s not about the physical distance, but the mental distance. Something will always be inside your heart that makes you wriggle with joy; something you’re so proud to have that it warms you up whenever you think of it; and something you embrace with so much enthusiasm and contentment that you feel that you’re not in this world.
I believe, so far in my life, only one person has made me felt this way. And I hope he’ll always be the only one who can make me feel this way. =)
I trust you. S.H.M.I.L.Y.
